Sick

There’s nothing like being very unwell to shake you out of complacency (or avoidance?!)

I knew I was struggling. It seemed like I had things in place to look after myself.

This is what it is to have a baby and work, I told myself. That I ought to be able to work four shorter days, take care of the baby, support the husband as he worked rotating shifts -fortnightly nightshift (working 830pm-6am, sleeping during the morning and an afternoon nap) and day (this means he’s gone 630am-6pm) shifts.

Sitting alone in the fast dimming edge of a day I spent unable to stand for more than a few minutes at time, I recall the rheumatologist I saw recently tell me it IS a lot. These things plus constant pain and exhaustion.

But what can I really do? These things can’t change too much.

I’m going to keep working on my immune system – high dose olive leaf, pro biotics (my GP recommended I take permanently) and maximising healthy foods using my smoothie maker. And rest more!

I will resign from the job that isn’t working and look for something more suitable.

My new physio is all about gradually increasing exercise, as if going from 20-40 minutes per day of walking toward an hour will decrease my pain – I’ve done the pushing myself for more and know the tightness and pain in my glutes, lower back and legs aren’t worth it. But I do think I need to build the Pilate’s back in, that really helps with my core, back and neck.

I’m also continuing to follow the mind/body connection thread in my reading.

It’s all a puzzle and I don’t think I’m doing too badly.

Gentle hugs, hoping for better news soon.

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2 thoughts on “Sick

  1. Christine says:

    I am currently waiting to head into a heated pool for physical therapy. It took me ten years, two kids and sinking into depression before I reached out for more help with a chronic pain specialist. We are attacking this awful disease with every modality and it helps to admit to oneself what is happening is actually happening. Hang in there. Gentle hugs.

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  2. You might find some solace on my blog. I’ve been through chronic fatigue and I have a seven year old who is recovering from it. I look at at from the angle of why we disconnect with parts of ourselves which then affect the areas and systems of our body.

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